i'm sorry... i can forgive, but i'll never forget...

juz few hours, i'll finish my study... n here, I'm getting melancholic.. feels like a child trapped in a teen body (i'm a teen?? or adult already?? dunno n dun care..) may be i juz not grow up in suppose-to-be way, or i juz couldn't cope with everything.. everything being strain and i want to be better person. people around me and environment i live in made me like this. juz simple, yet very complicated person on earth. i envy seeing my friends talk to their family like friends when i couldn't be like that. true, the situation getting better. yet, it seems that still i cannot forget the past. when the situations are repeating themselves, only on difference people and it produce different outcome, it seems time being means to me. like it mocking me because who i am. like i dun deserve better treatment. sorry and sorry.. i juz being me. even i know, i deserve things, but in my heart, there's a small voice said who i am to be deserve like that. please memories, juz go away...... juz go, like it never exist..... i want to be a better person...