..Mati itu pasti..

'Setiap yang bernyawa, pasti akan menemui kematian'

Bait-bait perkataan yang selalu kita dengar. Dan minggu ni jugak, banyak kematian yang berlaku kat sekeliling. Even kalau jenguk newspaper pun (tak tau la keluaran bila, tapi baca jugak sebab paper tu dh jadi alas meja..), kos untuk mati pun tinggi. Nak upah gali kubur, mandi mayat lagi, kain kapan. Tu tak masuk lagi upah batu nisan la, yang design lawa-lawa tu lagi la mahal. Macam seolah-olah kita kena menyimpan untuk uruskan kematian diri sendiri. (memang patut pun menyimpan untuk kematian diri sendiri ..) .

Sebut pasal mati ni, teringat pulak kat satu ceramah seorang ustaz ni. Ustaz ni kata, kita ni hidup untuk buat macam-macam. Nak ibadat pun time hidup, nak mintak maaf kat Tuhan dan manusia pun time hidup. Sebab time dah mati, kita dah tak boleh buat apa pun. Even mandi dan kapan pun, orang lain kena buat untuk diri kita.

So, ambillah kesempatan time kita hidup ni untuk minta maaf, untuk itu dan ini. Sebab, kalau dah mati, dah tak boleh buat apa-apa pun..

It's 'multiplex' or 'multi-pelik'

It's soo hard. I don't know what to do n to think for my study. Been thinking. Sometimes, the most joyful n relax time is during your undergrad. So, for those who still studying, Enjoy ur life to the fullest!!!! :-P

solitude, transformation and amendment

dahulu dan sekarang,

semua sudah berubah,

tapi,

bukan semua itu membawa kepada kebaikan,

ya.....

seha dulu dan seha sekarang yang lain....

mungkin hilang seketika,

lalu timbul yang baharu,

namun, bukan semua itu baik

mungkin seha yang dulu tidak patut berubah

mungkin seha sekarang terlalu banyak berubah

ada yang perlu diubah,

ada yang perlu dikekalkan

ketuk pintu hati

tanya peribadi

apakah patut diubah

apakah patut dikekalkan

sekdar menjengah dasar hati yang telah lama sendiri

harap seha itu dapat mencari diri sendiri

untiltle.....

when u just don't know what to do, bored with everything- jobs, life.. everything just bored.. dunno wat to do... arghhh..... what should i do..... GOD, please lead me your way, so can i choose the right path... straight to you....

i'm sorry... i can forgive, but i'll never forget...

juz few hours, i'll finish my study... n here, I'm getting melancholic.. feels like a child trapped in a teen body (i'm a teen?? or adult already?? dunno n dun care..) may be i juz not grow up in suppose-to-be way, or i juz couldn't cope with everything.. everything being strain and i want to be better person. people around me and environment i live in made me like this. juz simple, yet very complicated person on earth. i envy seeing my friends talk to their family like friends when i couldn't be like that. true, the situation getting better. yet, it seems that still i cannot forget the past. when the situations are repeating themselves, only on difference people and it produce different outcome, it seems time being means to me. like it mocking me because who i am. like i dun deserve better treatment. sorry and sorry.. i juz being me. even i know, i deserve things, but in my heart, there's a small voice said who i am to be deserve like that. please memories, juz go away...... juz go, like it never exist..... i want to be a better person...

few more hours

few more hours, we will say goodbye to each other.. 4 years had passed.. i hope, even we say good bye this time, we will meet again. all good and bad memories will be kept close to my heart, as they will be the memories of you and me together. so long my friends. if this is the last time we are together, i hope you will be success and remember all those memories we created together... good bye...

thesis, penjual ikan, jelousy & SPM's result....

urgh... it's not a good combination. but, hey!! that's the real life. it's sucks... yes, i know... lets go with the flow and sort it one bey one. shall we??


 it complimentary n important, but still, i hate it. I. Hate. Doing. Thesis. hahaha... as simple as that. i can sit in front my lappy, n make a staring contest with the screen without even typing a single nor alphabet. my mind goes blank. but, hey. let's face. sooner or latter, i have to do it, right? so,now i have to make it as ' Fake it, until you make it'. it's hard, but i think i'll survive. Do the things that doesn't kill you, will make you stronger. Am i trying to advice/ preaching my self?? hahaha.. i don't know. going crazy already..

 

second topic, penjual ikan. i know. yes i do. it's weird, but it is. Or we can translate it into, sell-fish. Know what i mean?? >.<... hehehe... unfortunate to my self, i found people like this. But, it helps me to know this world better. if you want to be 'penjual ikan', it's soooooo wrong, in soooo many level. Sometimes, yes, we need to be 'penjual ikan', but please, look around your self n see. If other people so in need, please don't be heartless (or hati hilang. sorry for readers, this is direct translation) n be ' penjual ikan'. Other people can be heartless too. please remember!! For those people who always 'mengalah', it doesn't mean that you lose. Because, it's definitely not all the 'mengalah' ones, is lose but they are actually the winner.. haha.. i think, i kinda twisted  the words. Yes, definitely, i'm going crazy.. ahaks!!

jealousy is sucks!! n it can kills too..  but, seriously, it can kill someone, deep, deep inside. just like the negative thought kills you. it will affect your life like you never can imagine and twist you into some sadistic n crazy (i dunno, may be it's just true) way. i felt jealous before. but, i'm trying my best to twist it into something good to support both, me and the person that i felt jealous for. it's a win-win situation an i like to view my glass as half-cup full, not half-cup empty.. but, if you look closely, jealousy person is just so funny. they can't even realise them selves. Just like the cartoon above.. funny, it isn't?

 the last topic. For all SPM candidates, please... get hold to your selves. You do just find. whatever the result is, you do your best. Specially to my both 'bodyguards'. hehehe.. my beloved lil' bro n my cousin. you'll do just find. just be redha, but not pasrah.. God works in ways that His slaves ever think. so, be calm and keep COOL.  ALL DA BEST!!!